I’ve had BAD weeks before, but this week was the worst for me. I won’t even tell you why. Well, I just don’t know why. I’ve been feeling down and out(because I am). I’ve been having regrets about my past. “If only I knew what I wanted to do after matric earlier, I would’ve saved myself a lot of trouble”, that is what was running around my mind.

I felt like my life is trash the whole week. I literally couldn’t do anything, not even washing a single dish. All I did was sleep(more than usual) and eat. Whenever I’m feeling this way, my energy levels drop to zero and my life stops. Yesterday was better than all the other days, I cleaned up and posted the previous blog post. Some days it’s easy, but some days I fight to get out of bed.

This week was that week where if a stranger knocked me down and I died, I’d wake up and thank the stranger. I prayed ”Lord, can I just die in my sleep” every night. If you can relate to this, I understand. Pick yourself up, go for therapy if you can, cry if you feel like crying, show up for yourself and keep on trying to survive.


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  1. My love, I have always heard this, “It is not too late to start again”. If you are not happy with what you are doing then never allow it to keep you in bondage. You can start again.
    You can start today to change your life. Never allow your past to hold you down. Go therapy if you have to. The past is just that – THE PAST. You can start today to write your beautiful story.


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