I’ve had BAD weeks before, but this week was the worst for me. I won’t even tell you why. Well, I just don’t know why. I’ve been feeling down and out(because I am). I’ve been having regrets about my past. “If only I knew what I wanted to do after matric earlier, I would’ve saved myself a lot of trouble”, that is what was running around my mind.
I felt like my life is trash the whole week. I literally couldn’t do anything, not even washing a single dish. All I did was sleep(more than usual) and eat. Whenever I’m feeling this way, my energy levels drop to zero and my life stops. Yesterday was better than all the other days, I cleaned up and posted the previous blog post. Some days it’s easy, but some days I fight to get out of bed.
This week was that week where if a stranger knocked me down and I died, I’d wake up and thank the stranger. I prayed ”Lord, can I just die in my sleep” every night. If you can relate to this, I understand. Pick yourself up, go for therapy if you can, cry if you feel like crying, show up for yourself and keep on trying to survive.